Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Fear of Commitment

Some people get the seven year itch. I get the seven month inch.

Sometimes the seven week itch.

It's true - I'm terrified of commitment. It doesn't just apply to relationships, either - it extends to all aspects of my life.

When I was making more money than I knew what to do with, people kept insisting that I buy a home. "Do it, just fucking do it!"

But I couldn't.

The thought of buying a home, growing roots in one place scared me just as much as the idea of binding myself to a single woman for the rest of my life. I don't know what it is, I'm incapable of any sort of long term thinking.

I always feel like the bottom's going to fall out. That any sort of future plans are wasted, because you never know what tomorrow will bring. And if you've read any of my earlier blog entries, you'll find that it has been a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Well no longer.

Four months and two days away from turning 30 years old, I'm finally taking my first step towards adulthood.

No, I'm not getting married. I'm not even buying a house. But I am starting to work with a writing partner. Baby steps, right? So far we're working really well together - and while it's too early to tell, I'm really excited by the prospect.

We're very different people with completely different backgrounds. She is the Yin to my Yang. I'm crass, she's sweet. I'm insane, she's grounded. I have spurts of inspiration and stretches of laze, she's driven. Hopefully, it will be the right combination for perfect screenwriting.

I will keep you updated.


Moviequill said...

good luck on the collaboration

I tried working with a writing partner once. He kept telling me off every morning, drank all my coffee, spent time hogging the computer surfing when he should have been writing... then I took out all the mirrors in the office and all was well

Anonymous said...

Nice work. Sweet talking someone into doing all the work is the first step towards Hollywood success.

annabel said...

Wow! Your writing partner sounds fantastic! Looks like you got damn lucky when you found her, Crash! Damn lucky!

Devin B. said...

Whatever works man... go for it.

I have a wife and a baby daughter, so writing for me is a hit-or-miss affair... I liken it to being like a pervert surfing porno sites on the brink of being busted and exposed. I steal moments to write, always expecting my wife to swing around the corner and rip me away from it in an angry tone of voice. Very similar.

I'm into Act II and Act III of my spec re-write. It's fun and challenging... I'm jazzed about it, actually.

But hey, that's life. I am completely in love with my baby girl... she is my little angel. And my wife's not so bad herself.

Best Regards (and good luck),